*~MoNiCa~* [entries|friends|calendar] monica_loves_u links info recent calendar add me about me Name:MoNiCa MaRie! Age:15 I Am A:gurly Status:Single... =( Likes:I like food! OKAY!!!??? Dislikes:Many Many things! OKAY!!??? I Love You I LOVE my FrIeNdS!! I love you! I love KARLY ANN! I love SHELBY ANNE! ThE gEtAwAy! Here I am again Talking to myself Sitting at a red light Both hands on the wheel How am I supposed to feel? So much running through my mind First you wanna be free Now you say you need me Giving mixed signals and signs It's so hard to let you in Thinking you might slam the brakes again Put the pedal down Heading out of town Gotta make a getaway The traffic in my brain's Driving me insane This is more than I can take You tell me that you love me first Then throw your heart into reverse I gotta get away I can't keep coming back to you Every time you're in the mood To whisper something sweet in my ear It's so hard to move on Cause every time I think you're gone You show up in my rearview mirror Is this just a detour? Cause I gotta be sure That you really mean what you say It's so hard to let you in Thinking you might slam the brakes again Put the pedal down Heading out of town Gotta make a getaway The traffic in my brain's Driving me insane This is more than I can take You tell me that you love me first Then throw your heart into reverse I gotta get away To a place where I can be redefined Where you're out of sight And you're out of mind But the truth is I can't even say goodbye Here I am again Talking to myself Sitting at a red light Both hands on the wheel How am I supposed to feel? So much running through my mind Put the pedal down Heading out of town Gotta make a getaway (a getaway) The traffic in my brain's Driving me insane This is more than I can take (I can take) You tell me that you love me first Then throw your heart into reverse I gotta get away my layout My Layout was made by xlayoutsforlove. Her Layouts Totally Rock! You Should Go There And Join!! your title<3 [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[Monday June 19th, 2006 2:26am] [ mood | like always ] [ music | only one. ] Omg... I wake up everyday with the feeling of not being loved. i wake up and dont want to go to school. i wish i could just stay at home and be a homeboddy for the rest of my life. i no that when i go to school i will see him. and i no that he wont even look at me. and if he does he looks right passed me as if i aint even there. i am nothing to him. i dont have many friends that i can call my true friends. people dont care. allt hye think is that i want them to feel bad for me. it aint even that i just want ppl to let me whine to them and have them listne. that is what friends should be able to do. i no i can do it for ppl. why cant they do it for me. i miss him so much. i cry myself to sleep all the time shelby and i pray over and over and over and over again that i can get him back. i just wish there was some way of making him realize how much i love him and care about him and miss him and want him back. i have never fellt this strong about someone or even something for that matter. i am really depressed. i try and be happy. i realy do. i try and have fun. and laugh. and smile. and hang out wiht just the girls. but in the end i misss my best friend *him* and i miss how we were and how we laughed and how we smiled and how we made fun of each other. people just say get over him and damn leave it alone and shit but i cant, i realy do love him. and i wish he felt the same about me. i wish i could get a 2nd chance to make everything okay. to make us us again. i look at those pictures of us and cry and think about it. about how cute we were and how it went from us being sooo close to us being nothing. him wnating nothing to do with me. him listening to his friends and not his heart. sometimes i think that i was just used. and that he didnt just up and leave because he didnt want to make him look bad. so he waited until he found a good enough reason. and the broke up with me. i miss him so much no one even can compare to get it. i find myslef thinking about him ALL the time. about everything. the little things. the big things. everything. eh made me so happy. he made me so i wasnt depressed io was the happiest when i was with him and now i am nothing. i am nothing with out him- my best friend- my everything. i try to make him realize that we shoud be together but he dont want to. i think he hates me. he didnt come right out and say it. but i trully think he does. and i dont want that. it aint even that i miss him as a boyfriend. i just want him as a part of my life. i want him to be happy and me to be happy and us to be together and be happy. i was soo happy when we were going ouit. and then my life suddenly ended when he left me. i am like minnie without micky batman with out robin jelly with out the peanut butter. they just dont make sence with out each other. i no that this is the first love of many but this is real right njow and i want it back. i want it sooo bad. i miss him soo much. like how we would tickle each other and give each other masseages and then rub each others bellys. and whisper in the ears. and be stupid and cute and romantic and fun and funny. wow and all that was ruined by a rumor that wasnt even true and he dont get that. or doesnt want to. i want him to. why cant things jjust go back to the way they were when i was happy?? when we were together??? when my life actually had meaning and made sence???? why???? read 2 cmnt

[Sunday June 11th, 2006 1:22pm] [ mood | hey still the same me. ] [ music | not shit. ] It's COminG BacK!! read 4 cmnt

[Monday February 20th, 2006 3:35pm] [ mood | over a boy i ^&*% ] [ music | nutin ] Well i haven't talked on this thing in like forever.............. so i have alot to say! Me and Eric dont go out anymore! =/ It breaks my heart to say that! He broke up with me for something i didn't even do and now he wont even talk to me! Its so sad and i have cried over it for a long time now ( a whole week and a day).  It hurts my feelings that no one cares too! Many people are like.. "oh well get over it" and "Who cares about him, your better off with out him" But the thing is i aint better off with out him!  Me and him had so much fun! We were like one of those "cute" couples that everyone loved! I was soooo happy! Its really weird how your feelings can go from being super duper HAPPY!!! to EXTRA EXTRA SADDER THAN SAD! **If you no how to help me or make me feel better than you call me or talk to me, cuz i need it ALOT** L.o.v.e Monica =*( read 2 cmnt

[Saturday February 4th, 2006 11:41pm] [ mood | oink oink oink(u no the noise) ] [ music | not poop ] hi hi hi hi   bye bye bye bye read 1 cmnt

[Sunday December 25th, 2005 4:17pm] [ mood | i ate alot alot alot! ] [ music | people every where ] MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!! Hugs n Kisses.... Monica Marie* read 4 cmnt

[Tuesday December 20th, 2005 12:05pm] [ mood | bn cghhvjrdrcgt ] [ music | not crap-o-la ] Hey Hey Hey.......... Well i never update any more but i will try to! It just seems like no one reads these anymore.... so... why bother u no?? Well last night i stayed over at Shelby's house....... and she talked online all night, so i feel asleep...... me and her never really hang out that much any more... tear tear....... But yeah. i am leaving now.... Bye! Bye! Monica Marie*        read 3 cmnt

[Thursday December 15th, 2005 2:48pm] [ mood | haha ] [ music | nutin ] w0w..... i havent updated in a while so i thought i would....... lately i havent done nutting really exciting...... went to the dance... that was SUper Duper Fun.... thenI have been hanging out wiht Eric....... Me and Shelby dont hang out that much anymore tho... Its soooo sad......  = (    But anyways.................. Tomorrow is the last day of school then we have Christmas break..... I still have soooo much shopping to do..... AHHH!!!!! But if u wanna hang out with me.... you better call me over break..... 773*3731 or my cell if u no it..... LOL!! Hugs n Kisses..,,..,.,., Monica Marie read 2 cmnt

[Wednesday December 7th, 2005 3:38pm] [ mood | i am happy right now! ] [ music | nothing ] Remember back.... Before the Myspace|Livejournal frenzy Before the Internet or Text messaging... Before Sidekicks & Ipods Before Playstation2 or X-BOX Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night... When you rented VHS taps.. not DVDs When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing... When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie... When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our WALKMANS!!! ***Way back... Tag Hide-N-Go Seek at dusk! Red light, Green light! Heads up 7 up! Playing kickball & dodgeball until your porch light came on. Hopskotch! Slip-n-Slides Tree Houses Mother May I? Red Rover Four square Hula Hoops the annoying nano pets and furbies Playing Street Hockey with the neighborhood friends Running through the sprinklers Happy Meals where u chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car ***Wait... ....Watchin' Saturday Morning cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter... ...Hey Arnold, Doug, RUGRATS! The ORIGINAL Power Rangers! Or what about... The Secret Life of Alex Mac! Ren and Stimpy Double Dare!!! Rocko's Modern Life! AAAHH!! Real Monsters!!! Wild & Crazy Kids! Clarissa explains it all! ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK! The Original 'All That' Cast Members! Kenan and Kel!!! lol (who loves orange soda) Who could forget Snick?! & Nick at Nite! with Bewitched, I Dream of Jeanie, facts of life & I LOVE LUCY!!! Where every1 wanted to be in love after watching THE WONDER YEARS! Not finished yet... Kool-Aid was the drink of choice Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school Class Field Trips When Christmas time was the most EXCITING time of the year! When getting high was swinging on the swingset When $5 seemed like a million, and another dollar a Miracle. When you begged to go to McDonalds, for dinner...EVERYDAY. When Toys r Us overuled the "mall" Go back to the time when... Decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-moe" Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!" "Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest. Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "monopoly" It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends. Being old, referred to anyone over 20. The chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.... The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties. Nobody was prettier than Mom Nobody was cooler than Dad Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people" rides at the fair... When playing nintendo was the hardest thing ever. When ninja turtles ruled the world. Post this to your bulletin if you remember these days, these days when you had a blast being a kid Totally got this from SoNja!! WHo got It frOm KarLa! read 4 cmnt

[Tuesday December 6th, 2005 3:00pm] [ mood | and sick! ] [ music | notta ] Well... Yesterday and today pretty much sucked cuz i am sick.... Yesterday all i did was come home and sleep! i got like 15 hours or more of sleep last night... and guess what?? i am still extra tired today!!  UGH i hate being sick!! =/    Well i aint got much to say! so.............. Hugs n Kisses... Monica Marie read 0 cmnt

[Wednesday November 30th, 2005 2:59pm] [ mood | parents!! UGH! ] [ music | nutin ] Well.... Yesterday~ Kaelee came over and we did my hw for like 3849735947 hours.... lol... and then Eric came over... =) and we went to wesco for some hot coco! Yummy.. tasted mighty good! But then we all came back here and we watched the note book and elf... they were good. Then Eric went home @ about 9:30 or so... and me and Kaelee put in how to lose a guy in 10 days... we feel asleep! lol Me and my dad got into a fight last night... only cuz i told him the truth... u all dont even understand, my mom and dad blame everything on me and think i should do everything.. just cuz i am older than Kevin! Like..... my dad said "thx for helping out around the house!"  okay for one thing.. i came home and..... did my homework Picked up my room Didnt make no messes in the house and i still get yelled at!!! WOW!! I mean i am what 15 and i am supposed to be a maid??? No no no! and He took my phone away and told me i wasnt going to the x-mas dance!! WOW i no that i am going no matter what! Let me tell u! lol... cuz i aint missing that! Wow parents dont even get it some times....... teenagers are supposed to have FUN and not always have to be home and working and shit! I am sooo pissed Today... me and Shelby were going to go out to Branns for dinner cuz meand her having really hung out lately just me and her, and then this morning my mom told me i cant! =/   they make me soooo mad and sad. UGH! Well. If anyone wants to hang out with me this weekend.... call me! 773*3731 Hugs n Kisses.... Monica Marie* read 8 cmnt

[Sunday November 27th, 2005 8:56pm] [ mood | need to go to sleeP ] [ music | a christmas song.. dont no the name ] Well.... Heres the deal. I just got a new cell phone for my birthday right?? And i need some numbers to put in it. SO if u happen to c0mment... PLEASE... leave your number! I would be soooo happy! Well today i spent the WHOLE day with Eric practially... We went to the mall and he got his hair cut. Then we hung out at my aunts all day and ate grilled cheeses and tomato soup. i made it. =) Then his lil butt self locked his keys in his car. so his sissy had to come over to my aunts and unlock his car for him! What a Silly butt! LOL!! Well... if u wanna hang out this Weekend or Week.. u better call me and we can! lol.   =) Hugs n Kisses... Monica Marie*   ps. I love Shelby....... ((i get my present tomorrow! wonder what it is???)) read 5 cmnt

[Sunday November 27th, 2005 2:33pm] [ mood | Cuz Eric is geeky! ] [ music | because 0f u! ] Hi..... I AM UPDATING RIGHT NOW!   Hugs n Kisses.... M0niCa MarIe** read 4 cmnt

[Sunday November 27th, 2005 10:01am] [ mood | i need a bath! ] [ music | Stickwitu... well i was ] Hi..... Well 0n Friday I stayed the night at Shelby's h0use! We had fun.. whenever we are b0th tired and bored.... w0w u sh0uld watch 0ut!! LOL! Then I w0ke up and went home from there and then over to my aunts i went! Me and Shelby stayed over there.....  =)  i had fun fun fun! And Today...... i dont no what i am gonna do really.... I n0 me and Eric are g0nna g0 to the mall... but i dont no what i am d0ing after that!! **I am Happy HE is home** Hugs n Kisses.... Monica Marie** read 1 cmnt

[Friday November 25th, 2005 10:08pm] [ mood | ahhhh! ] [ music | Ummmmm not shit! ] Well.... Thursday was my Birthday and no one really gave a shit! Only like 2 ppl did and then my family did! lol! But yea..... HUGS N KISSES!~! *Monica Marie* read 16 cmnt

[Sunday November 20th, 2005 11:54am] [ mood | Eric left me for a week! ] [ music | nothing ] Well.... Friday..... Came home and was in a Pissay mood... i mean like bad.... but then Eric decided to come over... and He brought me flowers and asked me to the x-mas dance.. i was SOOO happy and that put me in a very good moood........Then me and him hung out for a while at my house.. and then we left and picked up Karla and Matthew... and we all went over to Jimmy's house... It was super duper fun! <----- LOL!! And Karla came home with me and she stayed the night! i love that girl! Saturday..... Stayed home all day with Kaden cuz i am babysitting all weekend... and then Shelby came over and We went to Car Go... Wink Wink to Shelby... lol...  Awww i love her and ummm she owes me 3 dollars..... =)   Then she styaed the night over here and we just hung out..... Fun Fun.... Sunday... Sunday Sunday Sunday....... I dont no what i am gona do toay... i need to go and look at some of Tine's dresses for the x-mas dance... but i dont no... i will have to bring the baby along with me... lol..... awww he is soo cute, so who cares... and then i dont have no hw... so if u wanna hang out today.. call me and i will see what i can do! ~*I Cant believe How Happy He Makes Me*~ Monica Marie* read 6 cmnt

[Wednesday November 16th, 2005 8:40pm] [ mood | idk ] [ music | not crap-o-la! ] Well... Okay today was not such a good day for me..... last night me and my brother got into a HUGE ASS fight and i had the worst night in a long time.... So..... Today my eyes were all big and poofy! So i didnt want to go to school today...so i was kinda in a cranky mood! No one really talked me today at school either except for like Eric and Shelby mostly..... but some other ppl did! I dont no... i just wasnt in a good mood.. but then i came home and I got online... Talked to Eric...and then i went over his house.. which put me in a good mood!  He always does tho!!  =)  <------ thats me when i am with him! lol! But yeah!  Then i came home and ate din din........ Fich sticks and french fries!! Yummmy yum yum! Me and my mom had to go run and get some milk and while we were out we stoped by her friends house and stayed there for a few minutes! Pretty boring but my mom was happy! Now i am bored again! I have homework to do but i dont wanna do it!  Shelby and Sam are like the 2 sisters i never had!! I LOVE THEM!! Well i am gonna go.... ~*Monica Marie*~   read 4 cmnt

[Wednesday November 16th, 2005 3:48pm] [ mood | i dont even no why i am sad! ] [ music | look what i found ] I like Eric ALOT!!! And i hope we are together for a Long.. Time! Shelby is sooo Beautiful and I love Her!   read 1 cmnt

[Monday November 14th, 2005 9:57pm] [ mood | i want to help her out! ] [ music | nutin ] Okay.... I have this friend right? And she likes this one boy.... but she doesnt no if he likes her back! I wish that she could find someone better for her and thats nicer and sweeter and overall just better for her... but she is just stuck on this one guy! I dont no how to help her! I mean.... she likes this guy ALOT! Thats all she ever talks about.. i just wish she would relize how much of a butthole he is to her.... I am her friend and i dont even no what to do... I wanna find her a guy.... that deserves her.. and not make her think that she has to deserve him! She is a beautiful, cute, fun, crazy girl and i love her sooooo much.... I just wish she could see what i see..........   =/ *Monica Marie*     read 3 cmnt

[Monday November 14th, 2005 4:31pm] [ mood | WoW ] [ music | I'm waiting ] Today............ Pretty much boring! Excpet lunch.. Both of them.... lol.. Me and Karly = Bad momma's!! Just kidding! I did have fun tho with my Eric!! Awww..... I like him SOOO much! He always makes my day! I wrote him a cute note today!! =) i am soo weird! If u ever wanna hang out u better call me!!! 7*7*3*3*7*3*1<--------- call it bitches!! lol! *MONICA MARIE* =) i am soo happy we are together!!! AwWwWwW read 7 cmnt

[Saturday November 12th, 2005 4:10pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Dance Inside ] Well..... Yesterday was the Football game and it was FUN! After that Me and Eric came to my house and just hung out! =) Then this Morning my mom woke me up at like 7 and we had to bring Kevin to the YMCA cause he went to camp for the day! Yesss..... a day of peace! Lol... No i love him but he can just get so annoying! But then after we dropped him off me and my mom went and got a slur-pee and dounuts from Eric's home town... (Wesco) lol and we went and picked up Shelby Anne! So pretty much Me, Shelby, and Dakoda have been sitting at my house all day being bored as Heck!!!! Well.... Hugs n Kisses....... ~*Monica Marie*~ read 4 cmnt

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